A Nothing Special Day...

Today has been alright though nothing special about it. Was listening to two of my all time favourite sonds "Northern Lights" by Lux and "Casper's Lullaby" by James Horner.



I loved Casper the movie as well. Not sure what is so wonderful or great about it, but I just love it... I also loved the soundtrack which I got for my 14th birthday from Jonatan though I recall it was a horrible party. *sigh* (brings back shitty memories!)

Anyways, today I went for lunch with the Possum at his fav char kuey teow stall which used to be in the restaurant behind his house but now is at Damansara Perdana. The food was good and the watermelon juice was refreshing. Back home I was procrastinating again (big surprise!) and was playing Zuma instead of doing my work (Idiot me!). I played Zuma for a long time so much so that my right hand hurts like crazy now.

At night, the Possum and I went to play bowling at 1U and my hand hurt even more... not a bright thing to do really. Anyways, on the way to Mosin to meet the gang, we had some treats. Possum had a magnum ice cream and I had orange jelly which was super yummy. Bought 2 magazines as well (shites... there goes the $$$) though had a good sounding from the Posssum who was atucally reminding me about buying more magazines and things. Grrr... hate being reminded about it though I did tell him to remind me... hehehe *blush*

The mamak session was good... had fun talking... and talking and more talking. Thanks Miss Lum for squashing the cockaroach who was freaking me and Miss Tan out. So here I am... trying to do my work but being very unsuccessful (can you tell?). Well I should be off... I should TRY to get my work done. Think positive thoughts... I can do it...

Maybe I will just have another game of Zuma... hehehe....

~ Wonderful Northern Lights ~ One day I'll see them for real... whilst listening to Lux's song... ahhhh... Blisssssss... (Anyone wants to join me?)

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Dear Friend... I am glad we are friends again and the whole argument has been settled.
I love you... I bet you know that already, yeah? *Muaks Muaks*


~ You can claim a free hug when I see you next ~

Surprise Afternoon Treat

Was sitting in front of the PC trying to get my brain to work - it was being stubborn again (deadlines were looming upon me and the boss had just given me more work - sigh!) and was ideally clicking on websites when the phone rang... it was G. He invited me to go out to Centrepoint. Since I was sick of sitting at home with no inspiration whatsoever, I agreed. G came with YNeng and off we went to McD's in Centrepoint. After pigging out in fries and drinks, we decided to go to 1U to try the new bowling alley. Aights it was fun fun playing bowling with them. We actually bet money on splits and spares. Each of us won a game and more plans were made to have a "bowling tournament" of sorts with the rest of the malats (hope this plan will work out and not be like the so-called food massacre part 2!)

After bowling, we went to San Fransisco Coffee where we drank our ice blended/iced drinks and talked about a variety of topics. Suddenly YNeng read out aloud the words that were printed around the cup... this is what it read:



SAN FRANCISCO COFFEE
You're Cool
Been outside today? It's hot. Ang init! Hace Calor. You get the diea. Do you want to be hot? Maybe sometimes. But not now. Now you want to be cool . And Smooth. And Rich. You can never be too rich.
We make Frisco Frappes and iced expresso drinks to cool you down and pick you up. Our flavorful, fruity granitas will put you in the shade too. And, just for you, we make them like you like them, using only the world's finest coffees, chocolates and syrups. And cold, sparkling, crystal pure ice. So when you drink one, and for a long time afterward, you're cool.

This brought our fresh peels of laughter from the three of us. Goodness me ... what utter crap!!! Most nonsense I have heard in awhile!!! I just had to take the cup home with me as proof of this "wonderful interesting" description of San Fran Coffee... Hehehe... after that, we finally set of home with a good laugh and an enjoyable afternoon behind us.

I asked them the question about the Tortoise without its shell... here were their answers:

YNeng: Dead la!
G: Naked and Homeless...

Which did lead to a lengthy discussion about tortoises with no shells and black chickens with white wooly feathers... *shudder* x twenty two!!!

A question...

My Bro: What do you call tortoises with no shell?
Homeless or Naked?

Me: hmmm.... *Shudders* (tries to imagine naked tortoises!)

Me: Don't say such things... arghhh....
(mind conjures up naked homeless tortoises - GAK!!!)

How Many???

"how many tries are there in a lifetime of chances?how many? how many?"
(taken from Blogedeedoodah's blog)

I don't know how many... its a good question to ponder...
But I know that I will try to win you back no matter how long it takes.
I love you that much.

I CAN'T change the world!

Today has been an emotional distressing day for me. Couldn't sleep last night and tried catching up on sleep today but it has been filled with very strange dreams and no amount of sleep I get these days ever makes me feel rested. I had a sad conversation today with a friend and it ended up in as usual tears. After much thinking about it, I realized that I was in the wrong for being hasty and persistant eventhough he was tired that day, though I have to say that he was wrong in breaking promises that he said he was going to keep. So the thing is now will our friendship, one which I cherish so very much, survive this and grow or will it fade away into nothingness? I am hoping for a chance to make our friendship work again, but its never easy to mend friendships and relationships... I will still try though, if he wants to try as well.

This whole barrage of thoughts entered my mind when I was trying to sleep... I realized that I couldn't change anything as I once believed I could. I thought I could change things... change the world perhaps... but I now know with empty resignment that I CAN'T. I CAN'T change the world and I am a lesser person because of that. The sparkle of hope dimished in me then and the fairy tale ending I clung onto just came to an erupt halt. I am wishing that it will continue... perhaps one day (I hope soon) I will feel that warm glow when I think about all the things I can do to make this world and the lives of those I love better... I feel now just more emptiness.

Once upon a time, I had dreams... many dreams... now they are just replaced with peoples harsh voices to tell me to "Grow up!" to "forget about it" and to "move on and wake up", "stop being the way you are". Perhaps they are right... or maybe its just that I can't think right at the moment because my heart is damaged and I feel anxiety over so many things that I can't think right for the moment. Maybe one day I can change the world and the hope will resurface... but for now...
I know I CAN'T change the world.

Sometimes divine revelation simply means adhjusting your brains to hear what your heart already knows. (Angels and Demons pg. 532) - I need some of that Divine Revelation...

"Just-So-Days"

Its been one of those days... not sure what to call these sort of days... perhaps "Just-So-Days" would be alright a name for it. This time last week I and the Possum would be at the scrapbook shop (Made With Love) and now we are having a silly arguement which thus adds gloom to my day. Besides that I am 150 bucks poorer (mothers day present) and my feet is killing me (damn heels)!
Well the day started off pretty well. I went with Peggy and a bunch of kids to the Philharmonic Orchestra for a chamber performance on Joseph Hayden. It was my first time and I really loved the whole feel and hearing the music 'live' is just wonderful.



The whole thing was ruined though my annoying children talking and inconsiderate people coming in late and disrupting the music with the click of thier heels and their whispers which weren't whispers really. Hmmph!!! "Shutup! Shutup!" I wanted to scream but I didn't. I reckon I am becoming alot like a grouch these days... oh no... I am a Scrooge the making!!! *shudder*

Anyways, after that, my mum, Peg and I went to Kinokuniya and I only bought a fail for my work, no books (big achievement!). Then we had a scruptious lunch followed by strawberries dipped in chocolate... Super YUM YUM!!! The rest of the day saw me and my mum walking around, trying things at Dior, Prada, Coach and etc. It was fun but it was just absurd holding freaking expensive things. Had tea at Dome Cafe and then we went home. I was super tired by this time and had a good snooze when I got home.

The Snooze was good... one of the better snoozes I have had. Yet its not the same when you wake up and you realize that you have fought with someone... sigh... I hate that feeling. Just feel so blue yet not really... sigh... its just one of those "Just-So-Days"


Nala from the Lion King my all time favourite cartoon!!!

In Between Books...

I haven't done much today, which is bad, cos I should be doing loads of things... yet I can't seem to find the motivation or the drive to do anything. The whole project is not going well, the deadlines are looming, the assignments are waiting for their attention, the pile of letters have yet to be replied... *sniff* I just need some sort of energy and love of life like that I once had. I am now like a zombie I tell you... so sad... so sad... tsk tsk!

Going to the orchestra tomorrow and I hope its good. Maybe will stop at Kinokuniya but then again I should resist the tempation to do so... zilch in my wallet! OH well... hope the Possum will remember to bring a scoop of Heaven soon... Jamoca Almond Fudge... =)

Anyways, am in the middle of reading 2 books. Firstly there is the book that Peggy lent me Dan Browns "Angels and Demons". Its so addictive I tell you... I keep telling myself one more chapter... just one more... and its like 6 chapters later!
Then there is the Chronicles of Narnia by C.S Lewis. I am at the 2nd last story which is "The Silver Chair". The stories are good but alittle simple not as elaborate as Tolkein.

On the table sits the Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy waiting and craving for my attention. Will start on that after I am done with "Angels and Demons".

Just want to go on a long holiday really. I feel out of sorts again. I feel happy yet not really. I don't feel sad... I feel alittle empty... Not sure really. I have almost everything I need... yet its not enough, because if it was enough I wouldn't be feeling like this. I just feel like sleeping and sleeping and reading and just not be worried or hassled about real life... sigh!!! At the moment I am just going to concentrate on the books... the books... and maybe tomorrow I will deal with real life... YEAH!!! I ignorance is bliss for now...

Singapore Part 2

Been busy so couldn't really blog about my trip to Singapore with the Possum... =) Welll... it was a wonderful trip and we had good fun there. My quest for Suzy's Zoo and my scrapbooking things was a success as I found more than I was bargaining for. Hoorah!!! I also found a whole shop selling scrapbooking things from UK and the US which just was like a dream come true. The Possum says its i like my mecca... perhaps it is! But whatever it is it was wonderful and honestly it was devine intervention that led me there.

The shop was tucked in a really secluded place and if it was in Malaysia, I wouldn't have gone exploring, but I couldn't help it... Something was urging me to go forward to look and looky what I found "MADE WITH LOVE" scrapbooking supplies... Hoorah!!! Bought heaps of things and had a wonderful conversation with the lady there... the Possum was super patient as well and let me take as much time as I wanted which was alot of time... thanks Possum!!!

We had a wonderful time at Clarke Quay at this place called Elephant. The Possum, his friend (a semi vile person) and myself went there and had drinks next to the waters edge. We had long conversations about everything and nothing . I have to say though that the drinks sucked. Wasted my $$$ could have bought nice cocktails here. *sigh* The next day was Orchard Road and shopping... nice nice nice... we stopped for a drink at the Coffee Club which had wonderful cakes and a delicious Tiramisu Latte... (pics up later!) It was in one of the shopping complexes that I spotted TACO BELL... I have always wanted to have a Taco Bell meal and so I did eventhough I was super stuffed with BKT.

Me: Possum... TACO BELL!!! (I gesture like a looney)

Possum: Ah... Oh... Ok...

Me: Possum... TACO BELL la... Faster... come we must go... (drags reluctant Possum!)

Possum: You said you were full...

Me: Its TACO BELL la!!!

Possum: (looks at me blankly)

Yes TACO BELL!!! Yum Yum Yum... offered the Possum a bite and promptly ate the whole thing in a couple of minutes. Was telling the Possum that we should have a chain of TACO BELL's in Malaysia. He then launched into a whole business blah blah and I wish I hadn't mentioned it.

Anyways, the drive home was good (we talked alot about stuff) though we were really tired when we got home. It was an awesome trip and I just wished that it had gone on longer. One of the best parts of the trip was the pillows which were goose down... absolutely heaven. That was one of the bestest sleep I have ever had in my life. Then there was the scrapbooking shop, the Suzy's zoo stuffs, the toy shops and finding out that my StrawBerry Shortcake collection is worth like RM3500 something... Yipeee!!! (my apparently "useless" crap is not so "useless" after.... thank you Ama!)

Sigh... sometimes I wish these happy moments would not end... but alas it did... Oh well... the Possum has said that there will be Singapore part 3, so there's something to look forward too... aights! Hoorah!!!