Monday, April 26, 2010

Monday Blues

I had many a grand plan for today and strangely enough I find myself here at home, and on leave with my PJs on and yet having a mild dose of the Monday Blues. As such, I conclude that the Monday Blues can attack anywhere and anytime.

So am off to try and cure it *snickerdoodles*

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

One step closer

I want to shout it out of the room tops.
I want to scream on top of my lungs.
I am free.

And yet I want to crawl in a corner and cry.
And as I type my tears are pooling at the corners of my eyes.
I will miss some people here.
The routine.
The ease of being able to travel from the 1st-8th floor knowing that I have people to talk to on each floor.
The knowledge that I can get things done and know who to look for.
The joy of meeting new people.
The smiles and ‘hellos’ I share with so many people whom I don’t know.
I will miss it all.

But I am happy.
I am excited.
I am scared.
I am determined.
I am hopefully.
I am a mix of these emotions and more.

Regardless however, I thank God for guiding me and for paving the paths for me.
So yes, its one step closer to the end but one step closer to the beginning of something uber better.

It is accomplished.

It is accomplished.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Hamster wamster

So its about 11:47pm and I should be winding down for the night with my bag for worked packed and blablabla... but instead I find myself sitting on my bed with my unpacked bag beside me, several bags of stuff around me (last count 12 bags/piles/mountains),
a pile of bills on my table behind me with my tax forms (note to self to get it done pronto) stuffed somewhere in between another jumble of unsorted mail and stuff...
while I feed a virtual brown and white hamster virtual round yellow brownish balls of hamster food while it walks around its virtual hamster cage with a wheel and a water feeder.

Yes.
It is quite certain.

I think I need a longer break.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

So...

So...
I'm sorta changing directions a little. I am worried, scared and excited and somewhere in there is a strange sort of competitiveness thrown in for good measure.
I have really have so much but yet when I look around me at times, I feel like I am lacking and I hate myself for being so demanding,for comparing myself to them and for not being thankful for all that I do have.
I just wonder sometimes, why can't I be the first? When will it be my turn?


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