Sunday, July 28, 2013

He Provides.

So I say to you: Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; everyone who searches finds; everyone who knocks will have the door opened." - Luke 11:9-10

Today's Gospel reading at mass {Luke 11:1-13} is a reading that I have read numerous times in many stages of my life and yet, each time I read it or hear it as part of a sermon or a conversation, the message changes for me. 

As I listened to the Priest share his homily this morning, I am reminded yet again that God provides and really, how amazing is it that this message comes to me two weeks in a row {last week a lady offered me two candles to light and so very randomly told me that God provides}. Surely God must be telling me, "Hi JW, I got this. Trust in me. I will provide. All you need to do is ask." 

It it foolish to think that all I want is going to miraculously appear on my doorstep tomorrow and I know that a lot of my prayers may go unanswered, but what the Priest shared rings true to my dulled ears that needed a reminder... that sometimes God answers your prayers in ways that you do not expect and that He always provides you what you need, when you need it. And how true that is. I with my human eyes and my limited understanding cannot fathom the design and work of His hands... His plan for me.

So I paused for awhile today and took a quick glimpse through my life... at all my wants that have been rejected, all the disappointments faced and all the trials endured and I realized that these things have only built me up, made me stronger, made me more compassionate, made me see things with new eyes and above all to realize yet again how infinitely blessed I am. 

I thank God that I have such strong support from my family, from my husband and best friend, from my two sisters of my heart, from my friends and even my colleagues. I thank God that I have the ability to make people laugh and put a smile on their faces. To be a part of a team. To be part of a loving and large family. To own a small happy business {who would have thought!}. To have traveled. To have a roof over my head and comfortable bed to sleep in at night. To have so many wonderful moments in life. To have loved. To really just be just me with all my flaws and good bits. How we take all this for granted sometimes...

...and oh, how happy and infinitely blessed I am.

So I ask of you today dear God, for blessings on those around me, that their burdens lessen, that their health increases, that they have more smiles and less tears, that their hearts be at peace, that they be given their daily bread, that they find people to love them as they should be loved, that they are kept warm, that they have shelter, that they have a hat to hold,  that they receive hugs when they are down, that they always have someone to listen to them and care for them, that their journey in life be filled with wonderful memories, that they find joy in their lives and that the empty void in their lives be filled with Your peace and love. 

...and oh what peace and love it is. What a friend we have in you. 
Thank you for providing me all that I need and so much more.

Oh how happy and infinitely blessed I am.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

My 1st Giveaway on Hearts & Crafts

Hi my loyal blog readers. I know I have not updated in a long time and the list of pending posts is a mile long but I wanted to just quickly share my first blog giveaway on Hearts & Crafts

As you know, I started Hearts & Crafts about a year ago and it has been increasingly rewarding not only monetarily but also I have made many new friends, had the opportunity to brush up on my marketing, communications and most importantly exploring and creating new memories and experiences. 

I still have so many things to share but at this moment, right now, would just like to share this giveaway with all of you. So what are you waiting for? Go win some happy Black & White washi tape *smiles smiles* 

Thursday, July 04, 2013

A Mother's Day card

I know I am way late, but better late then never.
Made this handmade card for a Mother's Day card swap.
Enjoyed making it and am hoping that I will have the time to
experiment and make more cards in the near future. 

When I leave this earth

I never like to go to sleep angry at anyone, especially the people that I truly love and care for... but sometimes, when tempers flare and insecurities are unearthed and words are misunderstood, there is no mending bridges or communication for that day and you go to sleep angry

Not everyone believes in settling quarrels or forgiving someone before they close their eyes and sleep. But for me, I hate going to sleep angry or upset or hurt, basically in a negative mood. My heart usually feels heavy and I need to write or just get this feeling out of me and then only will I be able to fall asleep.

Perhaps the biggest reason why I want to sort things out before I sleep is that I would like to not leave words unsaid or to wake up to a day when things start off on the wrong foot because you are still holding a grudge, a hurt or words left unspoken because what if tomorrow never came?

Too many a time have people left without saying the words "I am sorry" or "I love you". How tragic to be one of those people. Hence why my need to settle these things before I sleep. In my world I strive to live each day with a ribbon tied round it so that in the event that I am chosen to return to God, I would have done everything I could possibly do. I still fall short, but I am trying. Life is too fragile.

So when I have to leave this earth or if one day I am no longer around to write or to type, or speak, know that I am sorry for the things I say that sometimes hurt or anger you, also know that I am aware of the many sacrifices you make for me and know that above all, I love you B.

Know that though we have our disagreements and different viewpoints, at the end of the day we are an awesome twosome and I know you love me too. Our lives will never be complete without the other half and like all those epic romance novels, tv shows and movies, we will always find each other wherever we will be in the world beyond as our lives and souls are eternally entwined.

Love yous booyah.


Update: I know that truth now about what happened and I feel foolish for believing you and trusting you. I feel stupid for being naive in thinking that people can change. I feel angry most of all for thinking that I was in the wrong, that I was the paranoid crazed one. And now, I find out that I wasn't wrong and learn how fast a small seemingly insignificant lie can turn into something so very ugly. Also, you should really be an actor for the lovely show you put on.

After all that is being said above, I know this is just a blip in the radar of our marriage and that I will get over it. What I also know is that the trust barometer has gone down and lastly, what I know on this dull grey morning is that its better to know then not to know and that I need to not only harden myself but learn how to stop being so naive, for leopards never truly change their spots, they sometimes just hide it under layers of fur.

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