So Now...

This year…
I lacked the huge surprise bouquet of flowers…
I lacked the fancy luxurious dinner in KL…
I lacked the packages upon packages of surprises.

But then…
The flowers I received that day wilted,
The taste of the lavish food I ate, long forgotten…
The packages holding secrets now opened… torn.
The contents strewn about, lost… ancient history.

This year…
Though there is no array of fragrant blooms,
The scent of you is enough.
Though there is no over-priced fancy food,
There are special home cooked meals,
Chosen, prepared and served with love.
The packages of before can’t seem to compare
To the abundance of joy you bring to me everyday
In the form of your smiles, your laughter, your words,
Your thoughts, your hugs, your kisses, your touch…

So, now…
I know I am happy.
I feel content.
I have the Sunshine shining upon me,
I have you beside me.

I have everything I could possibly need.

XOXOXOXO

~ Happy Anniversary Da ~

sobs sobs

I lost my favourite client.

They were my only semi-FMCG client and now they are giving my client to someone else becasue they want me to do solely corporate PR.

*sobs sobs*

I hate working life!

Half of 50!

So now I am aged half of 50.

I can’t believe how fast time whizzes past.
This morning, I looked at this photo of myself and several of my cousins gathered around me and I see myself in a pink frilly dress (I remember begging my mum to get me that dress from Parkson) with a yellow hair band (I wrote a poem about this titled “SHE”), with my bowl styled hair cut, smiling a wonderful innocent smile of happiness.
That was 18 years ago…

Strangely enough, it seems that every other birthday after that was never as good. Actually they bordered on sucky. And every year I would be left upset and disappointed. This year the day started of pretty much the same as the other years – sucky. It rained and although I was snug in my bed, I had strange dreams which irked me and made me toss and turn. I finally woke up and did some reading. Had a mini argument with Sunshine and decided to vent in my journal. And vent I did.

After the venting, I decided to start a fresh and wrote 3 SMS’s. These SMS’s were sent to tie up loose ends and unburden my heart - I only got one response back. I then took a super long hot shower and immediately felt better. The day much better when Sunshine came over and gave me a great big hug. We spent the rest of the afternoon playing pinball on the PC and eating leftover Domino's pizza *happy happy joy joy*

Later I went to my aunties house with Sunshine and caught up with my relatives. I sort of thought something was up and that they were planning something but didn’t want to think about it too much just in case it didn’t happen.

But it did happen *smiles smiles*

The lights were turned off and about 60 relatives of mine started singing “happy birthday” and I wanted to cry. I had two cakes to blow and they were yummy ones too. One was addressed to Jinjang Jo which used to be my nick name when I was about 7. The days when “SHE” was happy. The days when I was 7 and without worries, totally carefree.

Then I went home and the guys came over. It was lovely to have them over but somehow I felt that something was missing. More like some people were missing… Gerard, David, Brian and YN. I wish you guys could have come. Some how, the celebration wasn’t quite complete with you guys. The bonus however was Tiny whom I had not seen in 2 and a half years. ~ Thanks you guys for the cake and for coming over. It is very appreciated *smiles smiles*

Yesterday I also had a mini celebration with Sunshine and Cat at Alexis @ BSC. It was nice to just talk about things while eating scrumptious cake (I had mixed fruit meringue) and delicious iced cappuccino (Thanks Sunshine for the treats). After that, we went to Zees house for a little session and then it was back home for me.

So here I am after 3 cakes and a slice ~ well fed with a smile on my face.
Indeed this year’s birthday was a wonderful surprise. A birthday which was lovely and which exceeded all my expectations. To all of you who were instrumental in making my 25th birthday a success ~ thanks!

Thanks for the lovely birthday cards which meant a lot to me, the extra angpows, the cake, the company, the emails and songs, the calls and SMS’s and friendster messages.
*smiles smiles* Thanks Philip for the phone call. It was sweet of you to remember. To Zee for calling and organizing everything.

For you who SMSed me first and who surprised me with your answer. It is interesting to know that .."For you...girl to me your like a diamond, i like the way you shine, hundred million dollar treasure..i'll give the world to make you mine..."

And lastly, dear Sunshine… thanks for being such a sweet heart and for contributing to make this birthday one of the best ones ever *muaks muaks*

Happy Bday to me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!!

(I could not resist)

Last Post - 24th Year

This will probably be the last post that I am writing aged 24. Yes… I am growing up and leaving the 24^th year behind along with its subsequent years. The past 24^th year has been tumultuous to say the least and I am happy and yet sad to see it end.

For me the number 24 was supposed to have some meaning and I guess in some ways I feel as if I did not live my 24^th year the fullest ~ It’s hard though to do just that when you are stuck between the four walls of your office ¾ of your life.

Well enough of them sad maudlin thoughts.

There are surely better things in store for me in the future and though the thought of these changes scares me and makes me crave for the security of the moment, I know that living in the past is a crime and that it is only normal that we should grow with the times and change accordingly for the better.

I suppose that the only thing I can do at the moment is pray that the future is filled with only good and happy things and though there be trials, let them only be there to make me stronger and a better person. I also hope that I will grow in grace and persevere to do what is right and good for my life and for the lives of the people around me.

My 24^th year in a nutshell:

• Got a full time job as in the PR line

• Went to Langkawi and had an excellent time

• Began a new phase in my life with loads of Sunshine

• Ended an old phase of my life

• First family trip in more than 10 years to Singapore
  
• Stopped drinking excessively

• Read many books

• Watched many movies

Yup that’s about it...

GAH!

Sounds quite sad actually... but after much thinking back I realise that my 24^th year wasn’t that bad. It was a year of change and of breaking away from the past and things that held me down. I guess I am leaning how to use the ~Butterfly Wings~ after all.

Well I best be off. The day is almost ending and there are several things I want to do before I sleep. To all my friends, thanks for being there when I needed you guys. I could not have blossomed with such grace if it was not for all of you and of course because of God’s goodness, mercy and blessings.

Cheers to my 24^th Year!

Double Cheers to my 25^th one!!

Slogans for *DreamWeaver*

My slogans

(EMAIL me some of yours)

There's First Love, and There's *DreamWeaver* Love. (uh huh!)

A *DreamWeaver* Is Forever. (aight!)

You're in Good Hands with *DreamWeaver*. (for sure!)

I would walk a mile for a *DreamWeaver*. (would you?)

Have a *DreamWeaver* and Smile. (*smiles*)

Fill It To The Rim With *DreamWeaver*. (THIS SOUNDS WIERD!)

http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan

Seasons Greetings

I know this blog has been left to gather dust and cobwebs but much has been happening in my life and although there is much to say, I sometimes don't feel like writing down my thoughts and should I have some elusive moments of free time I can't blog as well since my blasted PC is still being reconstructed (please feel free to donate to the new fund “BUY *DREAM WEAVER* A LAPTOP FUND”) and I dare not get caught blogging during office hours… so here I am using the office PC after office hours.

Anyways, I will blog soon… long long blogs about my semi-interesting life – be prepared for long posts!
And all the pictures that I have been taking.

So, Happy Belated Valentines Day and Happy Chinese New Year!!!



* Do drop by my place for a visit if you can especially on the 19th. Don’t forget the birthday presents. *grin grin*

Love

What Love is to me...

• Love is giving up your last bite of ice cream and hot dog and remote control, sharing your blanket on cold nights, making an early breakfast for someone and sharing cuddly hugs.

• Love is thinking of the other person in every decision that you make, massaging their body and making them smile after a long hard day even though you are equally as tired, listening to their winges for the 106^th time and giving the same advice for the 106^th time, finishing each others sentences and laughing about the same things and just smiling like an idiot every time the thought of that person enters your mind.

• Love means forgiveness for all past and future transgressions, acceptance of faults both big and small, sacrificing everything; ensuring happiness and contentment each day and making that someone feel complete

Hmmmmm...
I think I am in Love...


* Happy Valentines Day*

Sunshine

~ You are loved ~
*grins grins*

Some Quotes

The following quotes were taken from one of the Malaysian bussiness magazines I had to read for work. I thought they were pretty good... For more info, do visit Dare to Fail

• The man who tires and gets rejected is better than one who never tries at all.

• It is your own thought that hurts you, not the rejection itself.

• The great characters of the world have been those who had to struggle against all kinds of rejection and hardship.