Stranger in the mirror

Sometimes when I look in the mirror,

I don't recognize the reflection of the person

staring back at me.

I feel like I am a stranger in my own body.

I feel feelings which I never knew I would feel.

Ugly, awful things.

Things that I wish I could rip out from me

and fling far far away.

I see tears roll down this strangers face.

I feel pain rippingly, swelling,

burning and bursting inside her.

I see the thoughts and the memories

play in her mind like a broken record.

I see her heart choke

and thighten and gasp.

I can't help her.

I just stare wordlessly,

unblinkingly at her.

And just as soon as that feeling comes,

it disappears and I remember that person

staring at back at me.

I remember her past,

I come to terms with the present

and look hopefully towards the future.