Thanksgiving

First among the things to be thankful for is a thankful spirit…
Happy are they who possess this gift!
Blessings may fail and fortunes vary, but the thankful heart remains.

Happy Thanksgiving All.
May we be reminded and give thanks
for all the immense blessings that we have been given.

Thought of the day:
The secret to enjoying life is to be thankful for what each day brings.

Stranger in the mirror

Sometimes when I look in the mirror,

I don't recognize the reflection of the person

staring back at me.

I feel like I am a stranger in my own body.

I feel feelings which I never knew I would feel.

Ugly, awful things.

Things that I wish I could rip out from me

and fling far far away.

I see tears roll down this strangers face.

I feel pain rippingly, swelling,

burning and bursting inside her.

I see the thoughts and the memories

play in her mind like a broken record.

I see her heart choke

and thighten and gasp.

I can't help her.

I just stare wordlessly,

unblinkingly at her.

And just as soon as that feeling comes,

it disappears and I remember that person

staring at back at me.

I remember her past,

I come to terms with the present

and look hopefully towards the future.

An unchangeable promise

An unchangeable promise
If the Lord be with us, we have no cause of fear.
His eye is upon us, His arm over us,
His ear open to our prayers – His grace sufficient,
His promise unchangeable.

- John Newton -

Paranoia

I would like to have a quiet read before I sleep tonight. I would like to have a peaceful relaxing time at home alone.

Those days of being home alone and feeling safe are gone.

I am panoid everytime I hear a creak, a sound... anything sets me off on paranoia mode. I clutch my bat everywhere I go.

No matter if my dad explains it over and over again that it can't and wouldn't happen again, I still worry about it, I still think about it. I wonder if what I hear is actually real and not something in my imagination.

I want this feeling to go away and never return.

God, please help me to overcome this worries of mine.


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Starting

Everything starts with something.

A small idea makes you a millionaire.

A shared smile turns into the love of your life.

A small seed turns into a gigantic tree.

So I have to start somewhere.

Get pass the past.

Get pass the excuses.

Get pass the obstacles.

It's now or never, right?

Amount

It's amazing...truly amazing the amount of sorrow and pain that a heart can hold.


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My place

I am blogging for the first time with my iPod who isn't quite getting the attention it deserves... It's an interesting experience no doubt. Anyways, Its sad that another long weekend has ended and I think why good times always have to end so quickly. I also pondered, despite this really awful headache, about me and my place here on earth... I think that this was brought about when I was walking amongst the gravestones in the cemetry today. I wonder where I belong and where I fit in, my calling and my purpose. It's a tough question to answer. Will let you know once I figure it out myself.

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