Strange Strange Day...

After getting the results and moaning and ranting and raving about the results online and with a selected few... I went for my ice cream review in 1Utama. Shaun came along with me and Joyce and we had all the flavours of ice cream plus take aways... yums... thanks Mr Ice Cream Man. He even invited us to his factory to see the process of ice cream making. *grin*

Was still feeling a little low (ok... ok... Very Low) and so the Possum decided to come to 1Utama and be with me for awhile before dinner which was really nice of him as he was tired already and he also got me Star Dasher who is none other than my L-ittle P-urple P-ony. *hoorah* I felt like I didn't deserve it but he said that I did cos I got one A and one B... (tried to make me feel better - worked alittle!).

Anyways, with the P-ony in my hand and my Tiramisu in the other hand (thanks Mr Ice Cream Man) I went home only to be told by Yue Neng that Spongy was in hospital... So the P-ony, dinner and the ice cream was momentarily forgotten as Yue Neng said they weren't sure if it was HIV Positive or not... of course being me I was super scared and worried about him although he doesn't know it and NO it was not HIV it was just bad bad bad stomache poisonning. (And if you ever read this Spongy - know that yes... I do care!)

Get Well Soon Spongy

So off we went (me, G, YN and Hanna) to Assunta to see him. Spongy looked not so Spongy... I hate it when any of my friends and family get sick or are admitted to hospital. He was so weak I just wanted to like prop him up and like give him some sunshine... *sigh* I hate the smell of hospitals and the sad weepy eyes of the people there who know they are losing someone they love, the tired eyes of the people who have been up at night worrying and hoping for some sign of recovery, the smell of antiseptic, the stark white of the nurses uniforms and the creepiness of hospitals... I hate knowing that there is so much sadness in that building as well as a little bit of happiness (only on the maternity floor)... sigh... hope Spongy gets better soon. God bless him.

Small Decisions

So the question here is, what inadvertent decision did you make that seemed small at the time but ended up changing your life?
(Got that from a friend who was talking about small decisions that change your life...)

Here's My Small Decision...

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I walked away from you...
and that ended up changing my life...

Goodbye Cruel World

I FUCKING FAILED MY FUCKING EXAM!!!

The HORROR!!! The HORROR!!!

For those of you all who called whilst I was checking my results and had the unfortunate task of listening to all that colourful language being babbled, I am sincerely sorry... and for those wonderful people who gave me moral support and told me that it was all in my mind and that I could NEVER fail... HAHAHAHA... I am not as smart as you think or I think or anyone thinks. The last time I bloody failed anything was maths in form fecking 5!!!


Sigh...
I feel so stupid...
I feel like an arse...
My parents might ask me to stop working at FACES now...
*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
I want to crawl under a rock and just sleep and pretend this never happened...


I hate fucking USQ!!!
I HATE MY FUCKING STUPID DOUBLE FUCKING DEGREE PROGRAM!!!

GAWD!!!
It was just ONE FUCKING MARK!!!


I feel so upset with myself.
I let myself down...
SIgh...
The ultimate lowest moment this year......
FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK STUPID FUCKING USQ...


okay okay...
I will take it all back if you just give me that one mark...


Please GOD...
I am so begging...
I will give up my chocolates if I have to...
(see how desperate I am?)

Picks ups the phone... and dails secret GOD-SOS-hotline...

Hello God... its ME again...

I need DIVINE INTERVENTION right about now...
HELLO?
HELLO?
God can you hear me???

*toot* *toot* *toot*
*nombor yang anda dail telah ditamatkan perkhidmatan. Terima Kasih. Sila Dial 103 untuk nombor telefon yang baru.*

*sigh*

I am having a bad case of Monday BLues...

These coupla days...

Thursday...

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The day started with me jumping out of bed after pressing the snooze button one too many times and rushing to get the bus to college. Watched "White Chicks" in class and had to do a critique about it (so technical - not my thing!) but couldn't think about what I wanted to write as my classmates and I were discussing other movies we had watched so told my lecturer that I would hand it up next week. After class, I realized that it would take too long to get to my house from my college as A was picking me up to go to Hartamas to review TNT. So I took a cab and was fortunate to get out of it alive as the cabbie was a little strange - but then as a friend commented, all Malaysian cabbies are slightly strange! - How true that is...

Anyways, managed to shower and change and A was at my doorstep waiting patiently and off we went to Hartamas. Accompanied A for a drink while he ate and then I decided to hunt for my scrapbooking shop which was literally round the corner. Found it and was in semi Heaven. Was riffling around the shop and found Flower Fairy stickers... hoorah!!! If I spent XXX amount of money, I would get to be a member and since I already was going to go all out to buy the album and what nots, I decided to come back another day and buy it, but remembered to reserve the fairy stickers... I thought the album would still be there (it was a super nice one) and I should have reserved that too... but NO! I never learn about purchasing the things I like at once.

Anyways, after "ohhh-ing" and "ahhh-ing" at the scrapbooking things I went to TNT to do the review. A was super nice as always and talked to K, the head instructor there. Then my partner in crime (Joyce) came with her bf in tow and took pics of the place and then off we went to Mont Kiara for a food review at Khana Peena, a restaurant which served Northern Indian cuisine. ;) Of course we had to say goodbye to the cat called Dog before we left. (Please DON'T ask - but then again I think its cute - a cat called Dog)

The food was good at the restaurant though we had so much food, as the ppl there really spoilt us (or perhaps they wanted favourable reviews) and between the Possum and I and Joyce and Adam there was still so much food left over. The best dish I had was the mango ice cream and the BBQ platter. (Look out for the food review in FACES October!!!) So home we went, super stuffed! A slightly long day but it was a fun day and not to forget so very productive! *Grin*

Friday...

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Had horrible nightmares and woke up feeling super bothered again... continued reading book which is now Jostein Gaarder's "The Solitaire Mystery" . Then off I went to FACES to meet my partner in crime. Waited a good 25 minutes for a cab and luckily found one... we nearly got into an accident... but yeah... I am in one piece. So me and my Joyce made our way to Rahsia Bistro & Wine Bar We took a cab, an lrt and we walked... the long way... to the place and arrived there feeling hungry, sticky and tired (just not a good way to meet someone!).

Anyways... the place was wonderful. SO my type of place and didn't help that the people knew just what we liked. I had a couple of drinks and lets see... 2 appetizers, 4 main dishes, 2 deserts and 4 cocktails!!! This of course was shared between me and Joyce. We were there for 3 and a half hours and the cab we called didn't come. It was already 11.10pm... and luckily the manager drove us to where we wanted to go. The ride back to Bangsar was just freaky. There was virtually no one around... arghhhh.... but all ended well... Went home and read my books and had a raging headache. I think it was due to the mix of cocktails though I highly recommend the Mango Tia Maria (super delicious!!!) Overall, I really enjoyed myself there with the food, the company and the atmosphere... 5 stars from me!!!

Sunday...

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Today I had a FACES meeting and got briefed on my work which I will be doing for the next couple of days (I am helping out the office and when my boss told me the amount of money I would be paid... my ears nearly fell off... hope he remembers!). So anyways, the meeting was pretty good, everyone is starting to warm up to each other and having more laughs and disscussions. Got 3 more food reviews to do... One this Monday at One Utama - Ice Cream shop and I have to find one vegetarian and one organic food shop (any suggestions?).

Then I went to the scrapbooking shop in Hartamas with Possum and well what do you know... the freaking album was sold to someone else that very afternoon... ARGH!!! and it was the ONLY one I wanted... *grumble grumble* Got my fairy stickers though... I guess better than nothinglah. Asked the lady to order me another album but she said might not be able to... lalala... WHATEVER!!! Sorry sounding so biatchy! Possum brought me to RSC and we met some old classmates of his from SMDU and we ended up having drinks with them. It was home for me then as the Possums house is super super messy and I so do not want to clean his freakin house. Anyways, am super sleepy now... I reckon its the screen lights. Gonna read my new book... "At the Rainbows End" - isn't that like SO a *Dream Weaver* type book... hehehe... :) Nights Nights peeps...

Whats in store 4 me?

After all that crazy ranting and raving about the idiotic waste of time movie (previous post), I decided to just write some happy things. Well, I am almost done with my FACES work for August (3 more music reviews to write) and one more review for MOVS301 to do on 'Bride and Prejudice' - thats it... for now anyways...

This week will see me on my toes - which is a good thing - as I have 3 reviews to get done. Two food reviews (one in Mont Kiara and the other in Jln Ampang) and the last one is a TNT Review for the sports section. Then there are the free Starlight Cinema tickets (thanks Zzura), the free GSC tickets and the Coffeebean vouchers. Hoorah!!! ;) And there is that whole stack (about 10) new books just waiting for me to delve into and the stacks of VCDs and DVDs I have gotten. Ah... nice...

Was watching alittle of 'Super Size Me' and realized that it would put me off Mackers which isn't a bad thing really, but I sorta like the food there... so I turned it off and inserted 'Five Children and It' instead. Got through the first CD and had to go get ready to go to midvalley for the silly premier which I thought was going to be super nice. Can't wait to see what happens to the Sand Fairy (rather odd looking creature this one) and the five children. I am so game for movies like this and of course the soppy love flicks though I like the dumb ass horror ones and the silly comedies and the nail biting suspense and action ones... yeah yeah... I like them all.

Applied for another job for writing movie reviews... not sure if I will get it or if I can cope - Okay... I know this is crazy since I could hardly cope with work and studies last sem. I will see how things go, I suppose. Was also reading spongy's blog and he wrote about what he aspired to be and that made me think about what I aspired to be... ahhh... perhaps tomorrow I shall pen it down. Going to read the rest of 'Wedding Day' though it is so predictable what is going to happen - all romance shows are the same... that goes for movies as well. Watched 'In Good Company' last night though and was happy to know that there wasn't a happy ending for everyone. I am not mean just thought it was nice for once to see some reality and not soppy happy endings for everyone. (like we really needed more! ) Going now... Nightes...

War of the Worlds!!! - BAH!!!

At first me and my FACES colleagues were all like super excited to be one of the first in the world to watch "War of the Worlds" but I just got home from watching it and honestly its the worst movie I have watched this year. Such a let down... such a flop. BIG SUMMER BLOCKBUSTER (So NOT!!!)... more like

SUMMER feckin FLOPSTER!!!

I am a movie addict but this is just BAD! and thank God I didn't have to pay a dime to watch the movie. Everyone was like so hyped up - no thanks to the trailers and the pre-reviews - to watch it and then Bang! - total crappy rubbish. Earth Goes to War! - BAH!!! It was such a disappointment and to think that it was directed by Steven Spielberg and starring the super hot international superstar Tom Cruise.

This contemporary shitty retelling of H.G. Wells’s seminal classic, the sci-fi adventure thriller reveals the extraordinary battle for the future of humankind through the eyes of one American family fighting to survive it. What they don't mention is the amount of shrill screaming of Rachael -(Dakota Fanning) who is incidentally has claustraphobia and needs her own "space" - in the movie and the stupid antics of the people like standing still staring at the alien tripods for a good 10 seconds before thinking... "oh, I should run now!" You just feel like shouting at them to get a move on but obviously they don't. Then there is the aimless people running around and more running around (like sheep on speed), more wailing and shouting and Tom screaming at Dakota to shut up.

Seriously a let down. Sigh... a waste of a good two hours of prime time. Could have stayed home and read a nice book curled up under my covers. Stupid Stupid Stupid movie!!!

One down... Two 2 go (Gah!)

Today was a very laid back sort of day...

Woke up from a horried nightmare and was so like super freaked out that I hastened to escape to my world of books... currently reading this soppy-romantic-chiclit book titled "Wedding Day". And after a spot of reading, that freaky feeling dissapeared - phew!

After a long while I decided to get out of bed and took a "princess shower" and felt so much better - there is nothing that cures a bad day and to take pains and worries away (albeit temporarily) than a "princess shower". I padded downstairs then and attempted to make something to eat but decided that I couldn't really be bothered and popped some frozen food in the trusty little red oven and flicked on the computer.

Decided to check my stupid USQ page to see if my results were out and well what do you know, thre was one papers result - 'Writing for PR' - waiting for me and ladies and gents... HOORAH!!! I got a distinction!!! Hoorah!!! - does the wiggles around the room.

Now I have 2 results to wait for and so far my 2 course mates have failed one other paper 'PR Practices and Techniques' (sighs) and I am just feeling all like twisted inside cos I know I didn't do well for one of the assignments (nearly failed it!) . So here I wait... nervously flicking on the PC every other hour to check. Nothing yet in my inbox or on the website. One part of me can't wait for tomorrow to check it again but there is this part that dreads it.

Ladies and gents,

I have not resat for a subject or needed to retake any exams in my life and do not intend to ever do that. I guess D's and F's are not in my vocab anymore and a C is like "so horrid" as lately I have expected only A's and B's. Am not a braggard but just feel let down when this happens. I feel that IF I had only spent more time studying instead of watching my numerous movies and reading my books I would have gotten that A. Its not easy juggling a part time job and classes but it seemed okay though I had a near breakdown last sem (thank God its over though if you are super stressed don't you lose weight and not gain it? - Bugger my hormones and metabolism and the like!)

I dont' know what to expect now. My parents have told me numerous times now (after seeing me super stressed and going mental) that it is okay if I space out my subjects and that it is okay if I don't get an A or B. But I can't afford to waste another year on doing jack shite... and I hate not doing well because I know that I can do well. Perhaps I have to give up work... but I have grown to love it and the benefits that comes along with it is pretty addictive too. Balance and good time management is what I need and a whole load of discipline!

Ahh well, there isn't anything that I can do at the moment is there? So off I will go now to play ZUMA or download TUMBLEBUGS - my latest craze - again for the tenth time (you only get an hour of 'free' playing time). I should of course be cleaning my room and my book case and entire room really... but Nah... I think I will go read a book and wait for night time when I go for dinner at Dome and then off to see the premier of 'War of the Worlds'. Hope its good... ;) Ta!!!

* p.s: Could you please like pray that I pass or get decent grades please??? Thanks a bunch!

*```*The Stars*```*

At times when I feel that everything around me is going so so wrong and I lose my focus and I quesiton everything around me... I think about the STARS. I wish I could go out of my house and lie on the lawn and look up into the great big Heavens and feel comforted knowing that there are so many bigger things out there and that somewhere under the same Heavens there are people out there with worse loads to carry. I feel so small under the big sky and I am reminded that life does not end here and that things that seem big and unsolvable today will be forgotten tomorrow and that time is ticking even as I type and know that time passes and that everything fades away in time... the hurts, the disappointments, the hurtful words, the pain... everything just fades with the passing of time.

I don't have a lawn, it was cemented when I was 12 and so the only thing I can do is look at pictures and remember those nights in Temora when I used to lie on the grass in the garden and watch the stars which were so beautiful that it would be hard to describe them.

They reminded me of diamonds scattered on a dark blue velvet cloth.

* May there be peace in my life tonight and hope for a better tomorrow *