I hope

Hope is wanting something so eagerly that – in spite of all the evidence that you’re not going to get it – you go right on wanting it.

- Norman Vincent Peale-

Free Falling

I am free falling.

Grasping at thin air.

Willing my wings to unfurl and fly.

They are failing me now.

I am free falling.

But I know I will take flight again.

I am praying, begging, hoping it is soon.

19 steps

Nineteen steps backwards today...
One small step forward perhaps tomorrow...

Once I wanted to be the greatest and no one could stop me.
And then there was you...
You who could stop me with the bat of an eyelash, a wink, a grin, a toothy smile.
I lived in your light, in your arms,
I never thought I belonged there but you convinced me and I believed I was made for this. Made for your arms, your kiss, your embrace.

But here I stand, sorrowful,.
Without a friend or ally it is hard to make ones way into the world.
So sad that it makes my heart curdle like milk left out for too long.
Like cement unattended too in wheelbarrows by the side of the pavement.
How many times do I need to go through the wrong to get a right?
To get the right formula and equation to a life that is content and happy.

I miss you.
The end looks bleak and empty.
Far out of a grasp.

Once I wanted to be the greatest.
But I will settle for what I am now.
I dont quite have a choice.

One step at a time

So often we hope our lives will change through a giant leap of faith, a profound decision, or a significant act of service. In reality, the only way we change is one step at a time, and every step counts — David C. McCasland

I am taking things one step at a time...

trying hard not to think about the future and what it holds in store for me...

but there are frequent times when I wish I change just like that.

B. D. Gulledge

B. D. Gulledge:
I used to sit on the banks with a raft and watch the water roll lazily by.

One day I pushed my raft into the shallows of the water and found the water moved swifter than I thought.

My raft was actually a boat.

Then, after some time, I rowed my little boat into deeper water.

There were great storms, mighty winds, tremendous waves, and sometimes I felt so alone.

But I have noticed my little rowboat is now a mighty ship manned by my friends and loved ones; and beautiful calm seas, warm sunny days, and nights filled with comfortable dreams always double after a storm.

Now, I could never go back and sit on the bank.

In fact, I search for deeper water.

Such is life when lived.

How do you stop the rain from falling down?

The right path

I wonder if this is the right path for me

AND
I am wondering if the shoes fit for the journey...

When will I know?