Monday, March 22, 2010

Rainbow Connection

Kermit the Frog

Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side
Rainbow's are visions
They're only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to
Believe it
But I know they're wrong wait and see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that
And someone believed it
And look what it's done so far
What's so amazing
That keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see

Someday we'll find it
That Rainbow Connection
The lovers the dreamers and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

This is what he wrote about me...

"There's also *DreamWeaver*. She is the Queen in her fairy and butterfly land. Also beautiful and intelligent. though you can't really tell from the looks, but her grades shows. she too is such a fragile lil girl. i've seen her go through a lot these past 3 years. she's the kind of person that is easy to get addicted to and easy to love. but love has never been easy to her. Sometimes, i wish i could just put some time aside from my own busy life and straighten all those tangles in her quest for finding her prince charming and help her on her way. she deserves it... maybe i should conduct an interview for all interested respondents and sorta choose the right guy for her. like american idol or something. sure damn fun one."
Circa May 2006

~ Almost four years ago. How times/things have changed ~

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Have you ever......

Have you ever had that feeling at the back of your throat,
like you couldn’t breathe?
Have you had that feeling like you were gasping for air?
Like you were grasping for straws.
Like you were drowning.
Like you wanted to talk but had no voice.
Like you wanted to dance but you couldn't even walk.
Like you wanted to scream but there is no sound.
Like you wanted to cry but no tears flowed.
Like you wanted to lash out but there wasn’t anything.

Have you ever had that feeling like you were floating in nothingness?
Like you were drifting in a void.
Like you could not feel.
Like you hurt but there was no wound.
Like you were broken but there was nothing to fix.
Like you knew it was right but yet it felt wrong.
Like you had wings but you could not fly.

Have you ever had that feeling like you saw only black and white and never grey?
Like you were dancing on fragments of glass.
Like you were drunk on pure water.
Like you were a miniscule particle.
Like you were a forgettable tool.
Like you lived a farce.
Like you thought you knew what forever was but forgot the next second.

Have you ever had that feeling like you were never born?
Like you see your death over and over again.
Like you lived in a dream.
Like you were just a naught.
Like you knew nothing.
Like your connection timed out.
Like you wanted it to stop but it kept on going.
Like you were in a roundabout with no exit.

Have you ever had that feeling like your life was a lie heaped upon another lie upon another lie?
Like you were so tired but could not sleep.
Like you were a soundless whisper.
Like you were never there.
Have you ever had that feeling?

Monday, March 08, 2010

A Monday Rant

I wanted to come home and continue and hopefully finish "The Dark Materials" so that I can go on to another book but somehow this urge to write has come over me for some weird reason. Maybe its cos its been awhile since I wrote non-work related stuffs.

Anyways, B and I were having dinner @ CintaRia in Damansara Jaya just now. There I was happily eating my garlic bread and mushroom soup (recommended), my 1/2 boiled eggs and my mashed potatoes when a homeless shirtless man walked past. I wanted to give him some money, I wanted to order some food and I was afriad so I did neither. Then we saw this guy go up to the man who had by then walked a little way off and offered him a packet of food. Later we saw the same guy giving him something to drink and I felt ashamed.

I feel like I should have done something instead of being afraid and wishing that he would just walk past. My fear overcame me. I also remembered the verse in the Bible that said basically, "whatever you do to the least of my brothers, that you do unto me. when i was thirsty you gave me to eat. when i was hungry you gave me to eat. when i was in prison you visited me..." How unchristian of me. I would like to be part of this select group of people who reach out. Who care instead of this other group of people that go home to blog about should haves and could haves.

Then while I was showering I thought... wouldn't it be nice if I suddenly came upon a few million dollars. I would first of all get my folks to stop work. Then I would offer my neighbours a whole load of money and buy their home and renovate both homes. Next, I would buy some bookshelves and glass cabinets for my books, Eeyores and little Ponies. Then I would give my brother money so that he can married to Ruby and not have to worry about the cost. Next, my whole family and B will go on a nice long holiday FOC. A portion of the money would also be given to the charitable organisations and victims of natural disasters and such and then I would buy B a Harley Davidson Dyna Fat Bob so that we can goes a cruising in the sunset *grin grin* Maybe I would also buy a few small odds and ends for myself like more books, some more paper and embelishments, magazines and more Eeyores. The rest I would invest and save.

Anyways... Yeah... I was just looking at the things that I have in my room and I realised that I am so so so blessed. I forget about the things I have and wish for the things that I don't have and I think I need to be reminded just how fortunate and blessed I am and I thank God for opening my eyes to see that I am so very loved by Him, my family and B *grin grin*

What surprised me over the weekend (which was a rather good weekend) was when my father nominated B to be the 3rd caller for the alarm system. Basically the alarm system will call 2 members of my family and if they fail to pick up the system will call B who in turn would need to call the security and the police. Such a huge responsiblity on his shoulders. I hope he is not too put off by this. But I just thought... WOW... my dad actually wants to give this responsibility to him. It can only mean that my dad trusts him and likes him which is very very rare. But I am glad that things are going well.

Well... suddenly I dont have much to write. Perhaps its the books that are calling me and the fact that I don't want to exhaust my laptop battery. So, until I write again dear readers, have only happy, peaceful, blessed and joyous days ahead and if you see someone who needs your help, perhaps you might just want to offer your hand to help them.
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