Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
It’s lunch time again (I had a bacon and cheese sausage sandwich and a banana for desert) and it seems that I have quite a fair bit of time during lunch these days to just do my own thing, and contrary to what Spongy thinks, I don’t blog during working hours, because lunch is technically not working hours… or so I would like to think.
I was glancing at some friendster pages against my better judgment and well I guess I got an unpleasant surprise when I saw one of the photos on a friend’s page. My feeble heart sort of got broken again but then since it was already broken to begin with, the pain is just a dull throb. Sometimes I wonder why I like to torture myself with thoughts that I shouldn’t be thinking of. Perhaps I am like some sadistic person and I don’t know it *shock horror gasp*
The past few days have been pretty alright. Bouts of diarrhea here and there and work that can rival the twin towers and nasty arse clients who I wish with all my heart I could kick nicely on their arses and ask them to nicely fuct off. Sometimes I even wonderer if these people are even human!
You would probably be thinking why I have so much time to wonder about things but then that’s the only joys I get every once in awhile ~ to step out of my work mode thinking and think about other things *sob sob sob*
Yup working life can be a real biatch!
But then I guess it had to happen… I just thought though that I would be different. Not like this. And you know what, strange as it may seem, the Possum has been a real comfort and support to me and I guess I feel super duper awful sometimes when I forget all the good things he is capable of and only see the negative side of things.
He knows just what to say and how to make me feel better, like giving me a much needed back scrub, apricot cooler from Marche, stupid joke to make me smile or good seats to see Disney’s Winnie the Pooh live (he bought me those tickets because I was feeling super miserable that I couldn’t go to see Coldplay because I had an event – was really bummed out about that btw!).
Perhaps some of you all may think that this is a relationship based on dollars and cents but in all honesty he is one of the only people in the world who knows me incredibly well. He respects my space and I guess I have been taking advantage of that. I am not perfect… (Sorry, but I was not built to be perfect!) really far for being so and life has led me down paths I never imagined I would take, but for now, I guess this is where I am. The Possum and I just like was before.
I have experienced much of life.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
~ The Time Is Now ~
Robert Paul Moreno
If you are ever going to love me
Love me now while I can know
All the sweet and tender feelings
From which the true affection flows
Love me now while I am living
Do not wait until I am gone
And then have it chiselled in marble
Sweet words on ice-cold stone
If you have tender thoughts of me
Why not whisper them to me?
Don’t you know it would make me happy?
And as glad as can be
If you wait until I’m sleeping
Never to waken here again
There will be walls of earth between us
And I wont’ hear you then
I won’t need your kind words
When the grass grows over my face
I won’t crave your love and kisses
In my last low resting place
So if you love me, even a little bit
Let me know while I’m living
So that I can treasure it.