I'm sorta changing directions a little. I am worried, scared and excited and somewhere in there is a strange sort of competitiveness thrown in for good measure.
I have really have so much but yet when I look around me at times, I feel like I am lacking and I hate myself for being so demanding,for comparing myself to them and for not being thankful for all that I do have.
I just wonder sometimes, why can't I be the first? When will it be my turn?